I always have that feeling that I've messed up. Even though it could be solved, I feel like its still my responsibility to take charge. Every single time I've messed up no one seems to be there for me, either busy or they just don't care. Everyone in their busy and care free worlds. And I'm just there all alone trapped in my own worries and troubles. Picture a big room filled with darkness and I'm in the middle just sitting there. Outside that room is a crowd of people raging and showing their anger towards me and there's no way out. They just would not stop shouting at you and their voices linger in your head. The only way out is from above but the ceiling is too high to reach and I'm just feeling hopeless. That is what I'm feeling now. It always feels like God is the only way. Times like these I just really need God because no one is going to be there for me all the time and no one could pick me off my feet like how he does and no one could take away my worries but him.
I'm really grateful for God and what he has done for me. Going to follow his footsteps everyday.
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." - Philippians 4:6-7
