It will always come back to haunt you. You cant help it. Even if you try to forget it, it'll just come back. Sometimes you don't want to forget because it'll be such a waste if you do. Stuck here, not knowing what to do but you just try to move on anyways. It's like you can't trust anything anymore, you just don't want bad things to happen to you again. No one can actually help you, or at least no one cares about you anyways.