Sometimes I don't know if it's real or all a lie. I suppose all that has happened is too good to be true but I guess I can't always think so lowly of myself, always thinking nothing good will ever happen or at least something good will ever last. I've never experience something like this before. I keep having this thought that it'll all just slip away and disappear. I've never held onto something this long before and it certainly has been great but also challenging. I guess God has given me this great opportunity and hopefully it is His will and not just my choices.
Or maybe I'm just over analysing things.
Doubts and thoughts always rushing through my mind all the time but I'm sure God didn't put me in this position to make me upset or over think. He definitely just wants me to be happy and so I'm leaving it all to Him.
"The wise counsel God gives when I'm awake is confirmed by my sleeping heart. Day and night I'll stick with God; I've got a good thing going and I'm not letting go." -Psalms 16:5-8
