Reminiscing

Maybe its the feeling when someone so distant suddenly feels like they are so close to your heart but the feelings might not be mutual. Maybe its the feeling that I get when something happens to someone you care so much, but they don't know how much you care, or maybe just the feeling of caring about/ love someone so much that it hurts. Maybe its the feeling of hurt you get when someone doesn't accept you for who you are or how you express yourself. Maybe its the feeling when people tell you they care about you but you realise those are just words. Maybe its the feeling of someone asks you for advice and you give them all you have but they don't actually listen and all they ever wanted was their own thoughts to come true, wishing you'd give them hope and hoping that you'd think the same too but you would only be lying to them. Maybe its the feeling I get when nobody understands me most of the time and I'm just so alone in situations. Maybe its the feeling of loneliness and emptiness, knowing that no one is by your side and you know you have to learn how to be independent. Maybe its the feeling of having doubts in your head and not letting it out because no one is there to listen. Maybe its the feeling when all the people you care about don't care about you but themselves and ignoring your problems because they think that their problems are much bigger problems/ more important compared to yours. Maybe its the feeling you get when everyone excludes you and you feel like you'd be intruding. Maybe its the feeling of pushing someone away because you've been hurt by them or somebody else and you just can't bare being with anyone. Maybe its the feeling of hopelessness when you feel like you're stuck in a whirlpool of lively dreams that are now dead. Maybe its the feeling of fear of not knowing what's the next step you should take or where its going to take you.